cekani..
mili pratele, nemam zadnych novych nebo prekvapivych zprav. moje lecba je ve fazi, ktera se da nazvat casem cekani.
Vcera to byly ctyri tydny co jsem slysel tu sokujici zpravu, a tak si dovolim malou rekapitulaci toho kde jsem byl a kde jsem ted:
1. ze sokujici zpravy se stala nova realita - v anglictine pouzivaji zkratku BC pro obdobi pred Kristem, ve svem zivote si to upravuji na Before Cancer - pred rakovinou a po.. prvni mesic lecby se zda byt uspesny! Chvala Bohu a diky lekarum! mesic zivota navic!
2. bolesti zubu a dasni - dnes bez problemu, lecba zubu bude prioritou az po dokoncenem cyklu 1. faze lecby
3. spani v sede a caste buzeni se v noci - dnes spim na rovne posteli a celou noc
4. nemohl jsem otevrit pusu kvuli bolave celisti - dneska bez problemu muzu ukusnout cokoliv
5. nechut k jidlu a bolest pri polykani - velka chut k jidlu a polykani bez problemu
6. fialova barva kuze - dnes normalni barva
7. bolesti hlavy - ustoupily, prasek mam u postele uz ctvrty den a neni duvod abych si ho vzal
8. nekolik ruznych kapacek co proudily do meho tela 24/7 - dnes mam pravidelne davky krve, antibiotik, desticek atd. ale muj koktejlovy bar je povetsinu casu jen s jednim drinkem! dokonce i na pozadani muzu byt na par hodin odpojen a projit se !!!
9. neznalost zivota ve kterem je realitou bolest a smrt - tady je realitou i stav ve kterem je pacient rano prijat a behem nekolika dni je odvezen pohrebnim vozem - dnes se ptam proc jsem ja byl usetren? a mam vlastne neco jako "leukemia light"?
Dear friends, I don’t have any new or surprising news. My treatment is in the phase that could be called ‘waiting’.
It was exactly four weeks yesterday since I heard the shocking news, so let me share a small summary of where I have been and where I am now:
1.The shocking news became a reality- there is an abbreviation BC used in English- for the time period Before Christ. in my life I changed it for Before Cancer- before cancer and after...the first month of treatment seemed to be successful! Thanks to God and thanks to the doctors! An extra month to live!
2. The toothache and gum pains- presently without any problems. The treatment of my tooth will become a priority as soon as the 1. phase of treatment is finished.
3. Sleeping in sitting position and getting up often during the night- now I sleep on a flat bed and sleep throughout the night.
4. I wasn’t able to open my mouth due to a painful jaw- now I can bite anything without any problem.
5. I didn’t have any desire or craving for food and had troubles with swallowing- now many foods sound good to me and I don’t have any problems with swallowing.
6. Purple skin color- presently back to normal color
7. Headaches- are gone for now. There is a painkiller on my bedside table without a need to use it.
8. Several different IVs were running through my body 24/7- now I have regular doses of blood, antibiotics, platelets etc., but my ‘cocktail bar’ is most of the time just one drink! I can even be disconnected for a few hours if I request it and I can go for a walk.
9. The lack of knowledge of life in which pain and death becomes a reality- here part of reality might be a patient admitted in the morning and taken away by hearse in few days- today I am asking why and why was I spared? and do i actually have “leukemia light”?
Rad bych byl vdecny i za to, ze nemam vic o cem psat. Jednu vec vim urcite. Nejsem sam - Buh me provazi skrze kazdy den novymi vecmi a postrehy, ktere se skladaji do nejake skladanky. Nevim, co bude ten obrazek na konci a ani to ted neni podstatne.
Ty prvni kusy skladanky ale zacinaji byt cim dal jasnejsi. Jsem rad, ze mi vedouci naseho sboru Cirkve bratrske nabidli modlitby za uzdraveni a pomazani olejem (28.11.). Kdyz za mnou prisli domu, najednou to nebyli ti "kluci" se kteryma beham po lese, hraju hokej nebo planuju akce.. byly to duchovni autority a z povereni Krista vedouci naseho sboru. Kdyz jsme se modlili za "uzdraveni" zubu, nikdo z nas netusil ze za dva dny si Buh pouzije doktora Rajcherta k tomu, aby me poslal na dalsi rozbory krve, ktere vedly k naslednemu spravnemu a vcasnemu stanoveni diagnozy (30.11.)
I would even like to be grateful for having nothing more to write about. One thing I know for sure. I am not alone-God guides me through every day with new experience and observations, that fold into a puzzle. I don’t know what the picture will be at the end and that’s not the point at this moment.
But the first pieces of the puzzle start to be more and more clear. I am glad the leader and elders of our church of Brethren offered to come and pray for my recovery and anointing with oil two days before I was admitted to the hospital (28.11.). When they came to my home, they weren’t these guys I run through woods with, play hockey or plan events with anymore... they were spiritual authorities entrusted by Christ as the leaders of our Church. When we were praying for “recovery” of my tooth, none of us had an idea that in only two days God will use doctor Rajchert to send me for more blood analysis that led to a following correct and early diagnosis. (30.11.)
Jestli pro me nekdy byla cirkev vice instituci nez organizmem, tak dnes mam konkretni obraz toho, jak ten organizmus reaguje na svoji nemocnou cast. Nepocitam kolik jsme s Jane dostali emailu, sms, telefonatu hned v hodinach po stanoveni diagnozy. Nemuzu ani dopocitat ke kolika kamaradum, kamaradum kamaradu, atd. se dostala prosba o modlitby. Vim, ze jsou i sbory, ktere se modli v nedeli behem bohosluzeb. Verim, ze to jsou vyslysene modlitby, diky kterym se mam tak dobre! Dekuji vam vsem za ne!!!
Nemuzu ani spocitat kolikrat nam byla nabidnuta pomoc s cimkoliv. Moc si toho vazime!
Personal a doktori se porad divi nad poctem navstev - odkud znate vsechny ty mlade lidi?;a co vy vlastne delate?; sestricka ukazujici prstem na me - tento pan je vice na chodbe nez v posteli.. dokonce jsem v jednu chvili mel okolo sebe 4 pastory, kteri se za me a Mykolu znovu modlili.. a mohl bych pokracovat!
If there was ever a time Church was more and institution than an organism to me, today I have a more concrete picture of how can this organism reacts to its’ ill part. I am not even counting how many emails, smses and phone calls Jane and I received during the first hours after my diagnosis. I am not even able to count how many friends were reached by our prayer requests. I know there are Churches that pray on Sunday during their service. I believe those prayers are answered, thanks to them I feel so well! I am grateful to all for them! I am not even able to count how many times we were offered help with anything. We appreciate it very much! The staff and the doctors are surprised all the time how many visits I get- where do I know all these young people from? And what do I actually do? The nurse points at me and says, ‘this man is more in the hallway than in his bed’ There was even a moment when there were four pastors around me praying for Mykola and me, that we would be able to continue!
Nemuzu ani vyjadrit dostatecne diky nasim rodinam, ktere vsechno odhodily stranou a prijaly tuto novou realitu za svou. Jsem moc vdecny za jejich navstevy a povzbuzeni, a nerad bych opomenul i donaskovou sluzbu, na kterou jsem si rychle zvykl :-)
Na zaver mi dovolte jednu malou poznamku. Uz vim proc vsichni chteji mit kancelar v centru Prahy. Nedokazu spocitat kolikrat jsem zvedl telefon a slysel tuto vetu - Jsem tu za rohem, muzu se stavit!!!! VMyslim ze jsem mel za posledni mesic nejvic rozhovoru za cely muj zivot!!!! a jsem za to moc rad..
Dekuji vam vsem za primluvne modlitby, pozdravy a povzbuzeni. Bezim maraton a vy jste ti kdo stoji na strane a povzbuzuji. Jsem vdecny za kazdeho z vas!
Martin
I can’t even express how grateful we are to our families who set everything aside and accepted this new reality as their own. I am very grateful for their visits and encouragement, and I can’t forget to mention the delivery service that I so quickly got used to:-)
At the end allow me to mention one thing. I finally know why everybody wants to have as office in the center of Prague. So many times I have picked up a phone and heard this sentence, ‘I am right around the corner, I can stop by!!! I think during the last month I have had the most conversations in my entire life!!! And I am very grateful for it..
Thank you all for the intercessory prayers, greetings and encouragement. I am running a marathon and you are the once cheering me on the sideline. I am grateful for every each of you!
Martin
ps. Mykola muze byt doma az do 5.1., protoze jeho vysledky byly tak dobre!!!!!!!!!! dokonce se snad za nim prijede podivat i jeho manzelka z Ukrajiny, tak to by byl uplne nejlepsi darek, predtim nez bude muset zpatky sem. dekuju ze se modlite i za nej.
ps. Mykola can be home until 5 January , because his results were so good!!!!! His wife will even come to visit him from Ukraine, so that was the best present, before he will have to come back here. Thanks for praying even for him.
thank you, Marika for translation!!!
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